Before I begin, I would like to fully disclose that I am extremely happy to be a parent. I love my daughter and would not change my life one bit. But, damn, mommy needs a break!
Who will take her just for a day or a few hours? No one, cry! It is the middle of the week, and I am off. I have a list of things to do and a demanding 2-year-old who does not want me to do anything else but play with her. And if I don’t, she comes and finds me. She knows all my hiding spots now, even the giant cardboard box. There is no hiding. I go to the bathroom, she’s there. I leave the room to load the washer, she’s there.
Sometimes mommy needs a time out: Drinks, good conversations and “me” time, or maybe just some music, wine and a bubble bath. So daddy came to the rescue that weekend. “You stay home,” he says. “She and I will go to my mom’s for the weekend.”
Yeah, I married a good one. Daddies need a time out, too. But for this story, frazzled mommy was in desperate need.
That day was great! I did get caught up on some of my favorite TV shows, exercised and even took a nap. Then off to work I went. When I came home, I thought, “Yay, I get to go straight to bed and sleep in in the morning!” I took a hot bath, got snug in my night clothes and hopped into bed. I couldn’t sleep right away. Geez, it’s quite. No one else was there, just me, well, and the dog. So, I turned on the TV, thinking I’d just watch a bit, then fall right to sleep. Nope.
Before I knew it, it was 2 a.m. I was sad. No one to kiss goodnight. No one to say night prayers with. No one to snuggle with. No soft breathing coming from my daughter’s monitor. I woke up early, 6 a.m. and decided to go to the early service at church. Many commented on my aloneness. I told them I would see them later today. “Oh good,” one man said. “Mommy gets to enjoy some alone time.” Nope, I said, “I did have some nice alone time, but I miss my family and can’t wait to see them.”
I can’t imagine how my life was before my family. Yes, there were some fun times, but nothing can take the place of all the love, laughs and life inside the home we’ve created together. Sometimes mommies need a time out to rejuvenate and to remind ourselves why we are where we are and appreciated it that much more.